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  Thanks to  everyone who responded to my last post!  I looked up every suggestion on GBT videos and was thrilled.

  I want to add a couple of comments on why I am turned on by great fucks.

  Let's go back a bit to remember when you first jerked off.  Did you have the awful experience when you were just eleven or twelve or thirteen that someone you were supposed to respect told you that masturbation was a sin, even a mortal sin?  I suppose that like almost all boys you rejected this nonsense as complete BS and jerked off more frequently in defiance of the warning.

Looking at this later as an adult. I can say that perhaps God intended us to masturbate, because the design of the foreskin and the lengths of the arm and forearm were perfect for jerking off.  If I didn't realize this at the time, I was skeptical of religious and bogus morality ever after.  Thank God or whomever for sexual freedom!

  Another step forward, which I didn't mention before, was my first blow job.  It wasn't something I actually wanted, but it wasn't something I was really against.  One of my neighborhood classmates asked me to help him with algebra.  I said that I could tutor him at his house after school, but if I tutored him in algebra, what would he tutor me in?  Doug replied. "I'll teach you how to suck cock."  I poked him gently in the crotch and said that I would come to his house.

  When I knocked on his door he answered clad only in a pair of brief shorts.  I carried the algebra book upstairs while wondering why he wasn't wearing shoes or socks.  When we arrived in his bedroom he apologized for the heat and suggested that I take off my shirt, which I did.  Then I took off my shoes and socks in order to feel the bearskin rug, which I made the mistake of telling him  was very sexy.  Doug said that he wanted to tutor me first.  He said that I was missing out on a lot of fun because I didn't belong to his group and he wanted to help me.  He asked me to show him how I jerked off, so now I got completely nude and started stroking my member.  As soon as it was completely hard and erect, Doug told me that he would show me an even better way.  He leaned over me and took my whole penis in his mouth.  He very slowly started sucking the whole member and I just loved it.  Under his tutelage I became quite proficient and we did the deed frequently until our schedules became incompatible.

  Like masturbation I think of blow jobs as completely harmless and innocent.  They are the next best thing when fucking is unavailable.

  When I went to Cornell of course I was interested in finding guys like myself, but it took some discretion.  The freshmen boys dorms had resident counselors who kept a watch out for "unwelcome activities."  Even though there was a gay activist club in the student union, it was monitored by self-appointed straight guys who posted names of guys seen entering the club.  Also, most freshmen were straights who wanted to pledge a fraternity un the Spring.  It took a while to find out that there were some bars in college town that had a table where gay guys met.  That was the start of some interesting Saturday night meetings.  One night a really sexy guy, whom I had met while being tested, invited me home.  I went with him gladly, because I really needed to fuck and be fucked.  We stripped immediately after arriving in his apartment, but before we did anything he told me that he had a huge collection of porn which he would play while we were in bed.  Why not?  That was when I saw a full length movie with Kip Noll.  I was so impressed with his long penis and the expert way he fucked, his face showing determination as well as pleasure as he fucked faster and faster and faster.  What a champion!  If you had any moral doubts remaining about the goodness and beauty of homo-fucking-fucking-fucking relationships. a Kip Noll movie could knock you on your ass.  To tell the truth, I don't think I really watched little more than episodes, because my face was buried in a pillow while I was enjoying a delicious cock in my ass.  Non the less I never changed my mind about the goodness of man-on-man sex: it's so good!

   So that's why I like, no love, gay porn fucks,