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holidays and other events..suck
i grew up in a abusive household--some things i talk to guys on here about that i i wont talk about..its boils down to friends and family during holiday season time and any other holidays like easter valentines day and so on..i went from one school to another when i was 13--and this school was only 15 miles from my old school if that far-- but people i thought were my friends that said would keep in touch never did--as i got older i went to high school--had what i thought was alot of friends -graduated from school and within a year i never heard from them ever again..i moved to another place little further away than 15 miles--and no one tried to keep in touch--
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20 yrs later high school reunion comes along and i didnt know about it until it was too late-even the friends i had that never messaged me about it wasnt around---now years later i met few of them on facebook and chatted--some of which i had sex with i wont lie--but they were married now or in rellationships and didnt have time for me--then work is same way--i helped out person after person and friend after friend and lost my job they never messaged me or called see what happened or how i am -doing---so people i thought were my friends werent my friends--i got one person messages me time to time but that is when he wants something so now i just ignore him as if thats the friendship he wanted i dont need it
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     now my family is a small family and over the years christmas has been somewhat of a joke--and disappointment--they would buy me a shirt too small or underwear too small or way too big and so on--you catch what i am saying--and then find out these items they bought were on clearance months earlier so i cant return them or exchange them i couldnt see buying someone gifts i know they cant use or wear--and i mentioned it to them time and time again and they never listened --so christmas comes along id buy myself something i want and they would be like christmas is around the corner i would say why-no one would buy it for me and walk away--
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its this crap that makes me hate holidays--i get one gift from my parents my brothers would get 4 to 5 gifts and a box of stuff called a care package with food toilet paper and so on--and this has left a negative void in my head about these holidays--valentines is a joke as most men i know just want sex-- easter isnt big on my list as i am not a religious person..
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 and its funny sit watch christmas movies everyone is all happy and saying christmas is the most wonderful time of the year-anything can happen because its christmas--its all fake and messes with peoples minds that in some way --people will show they love youmore than you think they do
As for friends, I have the same problem. I've had a number of friends over the years, but it seems guys don't stay in touch which each other if you're not around them on a regular basis. I've lived in California, Louisiana, Colorado, Arizona and now North Carolina and have had friends in each. But now I really have none, in spite of trying by joining groups of people with similar interests. As you get older, it seems guys don't want a lot of friends in their life. Women seem to do a much better job at maintaining friends over time than men do.
I do however enjoy the Christmas season, for the music, the decorations, some of the movies, the food - but mostly I suppose because it puts variety in my life.
It sounds like you're all alone, not only during the holidays, but regularly. If you have time, I'd suggest you get out and do some volunteer work. Don't expect to get anything out of it other than the pleasure of helping others.
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I can understand how watching other family members consistently getting more and having more done can seem unfair and one sided.  I kind of get what you mean but for different reasons. Holidays are a sad time of the year for me also. When I see all those who have nothing or next to nothing and they watch others get so much, especially children that's what makes me sad.
As far as me getting presents goes, years ago I forbade both of my children from getting me anything for my birthday, Father's Day or Christmas. I told them that as long as they had children, a family to raise and bills to pay that I wanted nothing. And I was stern about it. They didn't like it at first but they got me pissed and they knew it, so after drumming it it in they finally stopped. I told them "spend it on the kids".
Someone else always has it worse off in some way then most of us. I can take some of the sadness of the holidays away by doing things for someone anonymously. As long as they don't know it was me who did whatever, I get joy out of that. Putting a few toys in a Toys for Tots bin and imagining the looks on their faces when they open it can bring tears of joy to your eyes and that joy can help make some of the sadness of the holidays seem a bit less.
You're not alone there, mate. I am not a Christmas (or any other 'happy/merry' holiday) person either. Not for the reasons you stated, but I can't seem to be able to comply with having to be 'happy' just because the calendar tells me to. As for gifts and stuff: My entire family has agreed to NOT step into the commercial traps for holidays like this. Whenever I see something that would be a great gift for somebody close to me - I'll buy it for them no matter what the calendar thinks about that. I am not terribly unhappy about the fact that my country is in lockdown at the moment, so Christmas gatherings are mostly cancelled. I don't like the reason for the cancellation, of course. So I'll just have a nice evening with my next door neighbour. I'll cook us a fine dinner, we'll watch some TV (or something else) and then we'll see who can cum more often in the other guy's ass or mouth lol. That's it. Christmas done and over with.Â