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red1844 Blog Last Activity 7 years ago 338 views 4 comments

i know it might not mean anything to anybody here today. i had to go to a memorial today for my grandmother who was 94 years old. i thought it would be a great celebration of life. when you lose someone who you have known all your life it is a different thing. i was fine until i saw all the pictures and heard the music. i have been  very teary eyed since then. i was unable to be with her when she passed away due to a danm sinus infection.. i was with my brother when he passed away . i feel like i failed my grandma who fed me when i was hungry and put a roof over my head when i was homeless. i didn't think it would be so hard to say good bye to someone who led such a full life. i think it is just the selfishness in me not wanting to let go. love you gramma d! no need for anyone to reply. just had to get that off my heart.


 

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Gordyagusta
7 years ago

We seldom get to plan these life events, its natural to feel some guilt and pain. Time is a great healer and you will eventually forget the pain and bad times and the good times will shine on in your memory. 


Stay Strong.

Biway
7 years ago

How did you let her down, you were sick, maybe there was a reason for that. You were there for her memorial to say goodbye, that's the important thing, We never the over the loss of a loved one, we just learn to live with the memories.

7 years ago

My heart and prayers go out to you and to any family and friends of gramma d's. Grief is the price we pay for love. We all have or will lose someone we can’t live without, and our hearts will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you we never completely get over the loss of our beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in our broken hearts, and in your memories. I do believe there is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than words.They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep regret, and of unspeakable love. Have you ever noticed that it's only the good people who feel guilty about what they did or failed to do in circumstances such as this? The fact that you feel guilty that you weren't with your grandmother speaks volumes about what sort of grandson you are, and what sort of person you were raised to be. While grief is fresh, every attempt to divert only irritates. You must wait till it be digested, and then time will dissipate the remains of it. There is no time limit on grief, so take as much time as you need... You can msg me if you feel the need. . Gerry xo.

voyeur327
7 years ago

Very sorry for your loss.  There is always grief when we lose someone special, and there are always special memories of grandmothers. Let your grief morph into memories of times with her that are yours and hers and she will always be in your life as happy thoughts.